Being Greater Than the Fear
A granddaughter’s love!
If our love for ourselves is greater than our fear, we can heal ourselves! How do I know this is true?
Growing up I didn't have the opportunity to know my grandmothers so I never had the experience of being grandmothered. I observed my mother and other women grandmother their grandchildren and they all had different approaches. I used to dream of the kind of grandmother I would like to have. She would be the wise woman, the keeper of the stories, the one who sees beyond the 3D realm, the guide and the carrier of the light. At that time I had no idea that I was envisioning the archetypal grandmother and that I was creating a vision of myself as grandmother. As my daughter grew and talked about having children, I realized, I had fear around being a grandmother. What if it was as difficult as my transition to mother? What if I couldn't be what I envisioned? What if I couldn't love that deeply? I had so much fear that as I listened to women around me dream of being grandmothers, I distanced myself from the idea. I secretly hoped my daughter would not choose to have a child.
We often have the opportunity to face what we run from and in 2016 I had the opportunity to face my fear. I literally stepped into my fear by moving to Australia to be with my daughter, to be present at the birth of her baby and to spend twenty-seven months with her after the birth. I knew that archetypal patterns are energy and we can embody them. That is why this work is so powerful. So that is what I did. I literally am living the grandmother I envisioned myself having as a child.
As my daughter transitioned into archetypal mother, I transitioned into archetypal grandmother. We supported each other as we embraced our new roles. I can honestly say that it was a very easy natural transition. I absolutely love this archetypal energy of grandmother. The spin off has been that it allows me to serve women, especially mothers from a much deeper crone awareness. I am deeply grateful that I faced my fear.